Ugh! I am getting really frustrated with not having enough time to do the things I need to do as well as the things I want to do. I have a pretty busy schedule, I have something after school almost every day whether it's babysitting or going for a run. I am usually home by 5-5:30 and I usually shower or read for 15 minutes before I start homework. I almost never get much done before dinner so I usually don't start making progress until 7:30. And that's if it is not my turn to do the dishes. After an hour and a half or two hours of homework and studying I begin the hour long process of getting ready for bed and doing devotions in order to get in bed by 10:30. The reason it takes so long is because I usually get distracted.

I wish I could go hang out with a young mom and her kids more often because I really like hanging out with them. I wish I could read more than a few pages a night of a book I like. I wish I could get lost in my Bible for hours and not worry about being bleary-eyed the next day. I wish I could just spontaneously call a friend and talk for hours about nothing. I wish my weekend weren't so full of chores, homework and rest so I could actually plan all-day activities. I wish...

You get the picture. It's really frustrating. I am always forgetting to do little things, putting off homework etc... and I still don't have time for everything. I am thinking seriously of decreasing the days I babysit since I am not getting paid anyways so I can pursue other things. Hmm...we'll see cuz I love the kids but it takes up two days a week so...

Maybe someday when I am out of school or even this summer I can just take time and do anything I want. Oh how nice that would be!

Thanks for listening to my rambling- it really helps me process.
Goodnight!