too much.
Posted by Michaela Frantz on Sunday, May 20, 2012
my goodness those two words just sum it all up. with everything going on lately, the past few weeks have just been too much. this is evidenced by the fact that I have taken 2 out of the maybe 5 non-sickness-induced naps of my last 10 years of life. WOW.
let me set the stage here. my parents had 30 days to decide whether we would be staying in Chicago and they would be finding new jobs or moving to Florida so we could stay with Campus Crusade. so while the fate of where I spend my senior year is in question, I am also finishing up the 2nd semester of my junior year of high school which some people say is the hardest semester of all. add to that the self-inflicted pressure of trying to make sure I make everyday count as far as relationships go since I didn't know whether I would be staying here next year or not. pardon me if I'm wrong but academic stress and trying to work on relationships does not go well together. also, I was having some problems with a close friend which did not help because then I didn't know who to talk to throughout the day.
this does not even begin to describe all the emotions, both sub-conscious and conscious, that have been flowing in and mostly out of me. I have never been so grumpy in all my life (well maybe that is an exaggeration but still) and I have had a few days where I just fell apart and sobbed. oh joy!
thank the Lord I have had many many people praying for me and encouraging me. don't know what I'd do without them.
unfortuantely, I have not made time to be in God's word everyday through all this and that is something I really regret because all in all we go through stuff to get closer to Him right? it's kind of a waste if I don't even try.
and I'm sorry that my posts aren't fun and light and stuff. I mainly just use it as a journal. but I will try to post some pictures and some of my poetry soon :)
let me set the stage here. my parents had 30 days to decide whether we would be staying in Chicago and they would be finding new jobs or moving to Florida so we could stay with Campus Crusade. so while the fate of where I spend my senior year is in question, I am also finishing up the 2nd semester of my junior year of high school which some people say is the hardest semester of all. add to that the self-inflicted pressure of trying to make sure I make everyday count as far as relationships go since I didn't know whether I would be staying here next year or not. pardon me if I'm wrong but academic stress and trying to work on relationships does not go well together. also, I was having some problems with a close friend which did not help because then I didn't know who to talk to throughout the day.
this does not even begin to describe all the emotions, both sub-conscious and conscious, that have been flowing in and mostly out of me. I have never been so grumpy in all my life (well maybe that is an exaggeration but still) and I have had a few days where I just fell apart and sobbed. oh joy!
thank the Lord I have had many many people praying for me and encouraging me. don't know what I'd do without them.
unfortuantely, I have not made time to be in God's word everyday through all this and that is something I really regret because all in all we go through stuff to get closer to Him right? it's kind of a waste if I don't even try.
and I'm sorry that my posts aren't fun and light and stuff. I mainly just use it as a journal. but I will try to post some pictures and some of my poetry soon :)